As I sit at my desk on this rainy May night, I said to myself that I really need to just take a few minutes to write for myself. It's been a while since I last updated this blog for which I apologize. My life has been very hectic and most of my reading and writing time was allocated for my college classes.
The end of the semester is upon me and I'll be on break for the summer as of later this week to which I am VERY happy. I think college semesters are way too long. Eight weeks sounds good to me for a full term semester. If you cannot learn the material in 8 weeks then there is a problem. Can you tell I'm ready for a break from academics?
The paranormal group, APRS has been and is still quite busy. Our caseload has us booking into the fall now for investigations. Add in all the back end administrative duties, public events with our meetup group, presentation appearances and such, it equates to a full time job. Mind you I hold a job I go to everyday already besides going to school so add in the paranormal = busy life.
Though there is time for work there should always be time made for play and recreation. Later this month I'm planning to go camping for the first time ever with my boyfriend Cary. I know you may be thinking however will I function for a few days without my Keurig but alas sometimes we need to step outside of our comfort zones to explore and discover. I'm excited about the trip and am open to learning more about the great outdoors while also hopefully learning more about myself.
Back to APRS, the group is going through a period of transition as one of the other group directors left recently. I wish her the best and know what it is like to walk away from something at one time you may have thought would last forever. I did so with my public pagan group a few months ago. I have no regrets as that is a chapter of my life that is in the past. One cannot move forward if they never make a change or take a step so I would do it all over again if I had to as it opened up new doors and opportunities to explore.
I was a part of the public pagan scene for many years, both as a casual attendee and as a leadership member. The old place I used to go which closed in early 2009 (wow has it been 3 years already) had both its good and bad memories. The good I feel outweigh the bad as I met some great people via them and became a much stronger and better person from all of it. I used to be a self esteem challenged quiet little doormat that could be influenced and let her so called "friends" try and run her life. From telling me how to act, talk, live and dress to even what I should major in while taking classes part time. Those people did not care about me nor were actually what someone would call a real friend. They were in reality control freaks with huge inflated egos professing to know everything, who liked telling everyone how great they were. I chalk it up to they felt the need to try and tell others around them what to do so they wouldn't have to actually admit and deal with their own problems and such. Upon becoming empowered along my path, they learned that I was no longer a meek person who never spoke her mind and was a doormat, their pathetic asses were out of my life for good. I am who I am, will speak my mind and live my life as I see fit. If people can't deal with it that's their problem and not mine. I have better things to do with my time and energy these days.
On the personal front, Cary and I have been dating almost three months now and things are going great. He is a wonderful man who brings so much to my life. I'm very happy and look forward to each step on our path together.
Well I should get back to some APRS work and studying for a final exam this evening. It feels good to take a few minutes out to write something for myself. I think people need to make more time for themselves, even if it is only a few minutes in their day. Life is too short not to I believe.
I plan to update this blog more often and thank you for taking the time to read.
MJ
